Infamous witness

Infamous witness #2

(Escapist)

She could hear the voices in head slowly growing louder and louder repeating the same lines “It is your Fault! You are the guilty one!” She brushed aside all though those accusations and just laughed out loud. Loud enough to satisfy herself that she didn't care. Loud enough to make her think that she wasn't the one falling down. If I were some stranger I would have been stunned by her impudence but I just witnessed sheer animosity in her behavior  in her expressions. All the things that she rejected in her conscious started to haunt her in her sleep. There were nights when she would suddenly wake up breaking herself away from the dreams. On one of such nights she called me and blurted out her blues atleast some of it. The next morning she was back to her normal I-Don’t-care self. She just refused to talk about anything instead told me to forget that she ever called that night. I can’t help her but now I can decipher her perplexing attitude. People have a need to blame someone or something so that the horror of what they do won’t swallow them, be it the Devil or the destiny. She just runs away from her guilt but she is still surrounded by it. What makes it worst for her is that everyone just silently blames her and so do I. I never confronted her nor was I angry anymore. My vibrating phone suddenly interrupted my thoughts and jolted me back to reality. It was a reminder for me to go back to my home. When I wanted to tell her that I don’t pity her, I just empathize with her everyone could but all that came out from my mouth was, “I’ll meet you soon so just hang on. Bye!” She understood that I could see right through her facade. She gave me a tired smile and I could see in gloomy eyes that she trusts me. She wasn't hiding her agony from me but confining to me everything would make her face them all. She was just escaping from all of it.

They say that you can’t escape anything for a long time you would have to face it eventually. I just pray that it isn't true in her case but that is not going to happen is it?

Infamous Witness

Infamous Witness is a new collection of Stories that I write. I don't want to edit or hide anything. I just wrote, its up to you to imagine and assume.

Infamous Witness #1

His inside flipped over when he heard the accusations and the uncertain past. I could see a faint sign of distress on his face as it gleamed under the last rays of setting sun.
He probably sat there all the time under his persona trying to suppress his anger confusion surfacing on his face. This could be the beginning of his end or a change of something that this world was hell bent in corrupting, something that he held on very tightly. I am just a witness and I will just witness how his own people would say "Yeah its nothing you survived through it". I will just stand quietly let my thoughts say "No, he didn't survive and even if one day if he makes through this he would be crippled forever.". He can't help me nor can i so we are just the infamous witness of eachother's life. Most of the people believe in what they see i believe in what i feel. I feel helplessness and that is what hangs on his head. He dreaded that the accusations would be real but still unknowingly he believed them.

Well,My train arrived which marked the end of the part I played for the day. As long as both of us breath another day will come and we will sit down to count possibilities of the uncertain truth. I left him behind and entered the train. When I said My goodbyes the door closed between us reminding that we had our own ways to go. To our homes but then Homes are always different story all together. Ain't it?

They say when one day all these things are memories of past we would sit together and laugh at them. Really? Maybe I will just wait for it then Decide. 

 — withChetan Seth.

Sui generis Friends

 Aneyonhegaseo!

“Some Friends are like shadows that disappear in the darkness but best friends are those who are like reflections they won’t be always around you but the moment you face a problem they appear.”

- Ajitha Raghavan

Another Advice: Is care for everyone but trust just few of them. We all make a wrong choice once in a while by trusting the wrong person and end up in a deep sh!t. I too made it I couldn’t differentiate between a shadow and reflection. I thought a friend who always talked to me day and night was a friend indeed and the others just forgot me and Voila see the irony of life the friend who was there by me day and night disappear in the darkness and the only ones left were the reflections. Friend who followed me like a shadow never understood. People are trusted and trust is broken but life goes on. Some things I wished that would come true came true and became my worst nightmare. Previously whenever I went to temple I would lay out a list of wishes and plead god to make them come true but I guess I have evolved a bit now I just pray God give me strength to face my day. Bad things will happen good things will follow them if you have friends you have enemies. If everything is easy why would it be called life it would be called heaven you get something you are bound to lose it to. Audrey Hepburn was perhaps one of the prettiest women in the history but still she was not that happy. Don’t make being happy your goal make being content you goal.

No one except you can make yourself happy. Think with your brains and stop using your heart for every other thing. Trust the right ones so you won’t fall. If this world is beautiful it has its dark corners too. Be selfish sometimes and never sacrifice your time for anyone. This is not a Disney tale with happy ending always beware could also have not so happy one.

This blog is specially dedicated to my best friends –Rashmi Sundriyal Apeksha Dass Surbhi Arvind Anjali toto Sharma.

Thanks For Waking me up, thanks for being my support, thanks for not walking away, thanks for understanding me. There are so many things I am thankful to you all. I kept my promise my smile did return.

Don't worry.

Fighting!

Sui generis Dreams

Aneyonhegaseo!

For In Dreams We Enter A World Which Is Entirely Our Own.

-Albus Dumbledore

Recently I came across this quote. It made me wonder about our dreams. There are many dreams the one forgotten with our childhood or the one which our parents expected us to dream or the dream that came from your heart or those which we dream seeing others. No one of these dreams are useless or not worth following but WHICH ONE OF THESE ARE REALLY FOR US? One which not only sets our heart racing when we achieve it but also complete us. Satisfy us.

Dreams change with us. More we grow us bigger we dream slowly shedding behind the smaller ones. Your dream can be to impress other or your dream can be Just cash flowing in your account or it can just be a Girl/boy. With time we start choosing dream which is beneficial for us instead of choosing dream which not that which satisfies us.

Dale was a small boy who dreamt of flying away in a big yellow balloon so he always used to buy a yellow balloon from the local Store and kept it with him. His parents were working so they never got time to spend with him. His visits to the shop became frequent and the shop owner became his best friend, mentor. Time flew away Dale grew up moved away from the village and forgot about his dream too. His parents urged him to be a doctor and obediently he became one. He never found happiness in it. Then one fine day he visited his home town he was curious about the shop owner. He went there but he found his son siting there so he enquired about the shopkeeper and came to know that he had been suffering from a spinal injury for past few years and they were unable to cure him due to shortage of funds. He saw the the condition of his best friend and was moved to tears. This motivated dale to open a hospital in the area. Now even though his profits are not high as city hospitals but dale is satisfied helping others accepting minimal fees. Dale’s first dream paved the path for his biggest dream and the dream his parents made him dream further helped him if he never thought of balloons he would have never been friends with the shopkeeper and never would have the pain of the injury moved him and if his parents didn’t make him dream becoming a doctor dale wouldn’t have been open the hospital.

There are dreams you fail to achieve but don’t put a full stop there. Don’t stop dreaming. There is always a reason why you fell find it out and stop not till you achieve it or if you fail in it because you have realised that it ain’t for you so go find your right dream find the right piece to complete the puzzle. It’s not that the dream you find yourself is the one it can also be the one that other choose for you. You catch your dreams or you stumble on it. They just happen to you.

Choose your dream wisely for they too play a part in making a life Sui generis.

You catch your dreams or you stumble on it. They just happen to you.

Wait for the right one.

Fighting!